i was at the mall today and, while standing briefly in the food court, i watched the people pass me by. there was one girl in particular who passed me that caught my attention. in the brief seconds that i saw her i had this ache in my heart as i saw her downcast face. she was slightly heavy set, with blueish grey hair pulled partially back in a small ponytail, her clothes also were grey and definitely an attempt at personal (yet trendy) style. she was beautiful, but i sensed she didn't know it (or believe it). as i watched her pass me by i had an urge to reach out and touch her, to let her know of her value and that God loves her. but i didn't...
how often i see opportunities such as these and i lack the courage to speak.
last week i was listening to a woman at work share about her friend who is dying of cancer. the shock and heartache she felt were evident on her face and in her voice. i had no words, yet my heart ached to speak into the situation. i continued to listen as we ate our lunches but no words came. eventually lunch was over and we made our way back out to the production room. i felt the moment passing by and i quickly walked up to her and blurted out "i'll be praying for you and your husband in this time, and for your friend, that you'll know how to comfort and stand by her and her husband". she was appreciative and i, with my heart racing inside of me, was grateful for God's grace in allowing me an opportunity to say something that would direct her attention to Him.
it is amazing to me that a God as powerful as our God would use weak people such as myself to bring His Gospel to the world. i stumble over my words, or in all likelihood don't say anything at all, and watch as a lost person walks away. i'm getting to a place of being tired of sitting on the sidelines waiting for the right words to come, but there is still a lot of wimp left in me and I just can't seem to move beyond seeing the need to speaking out regarding the need that i see.
it is my desire that this to be my mission statement and motivation: i am convinced that God, who began a good work in me, will be faithful to complete it until the return of Jesus Christ. for this reason i strive for the higher calling of Christ, seeking to die to myself that others might live.
o Lord i pray that you can use this wimp for your glory...somehow.
